I've been in a funk all week. Just feeling kind of down. Kind of anxious. There are so many reasons. The holidays. Monthly female stuff. The cold, cold temperatures (I'm starting to think there is really something to this seasonal affective disorder). Work stress. General malaise. Yesterday was one of those days that I just Read more…
Category:Depression
Sep
24
2008
A Passing Cloud
I’ve been a little sad for the last week. I’m not really sure why. Last night I finally tried to put words to whatever it is I’ve been feeling. I sat on the deck with Greg at dusk, the cicadas ringing in the trees and little drifts of fallen golden leaves all around us on Read more…
Jul
10
2008
Sitting
Last night I went to the first session of my three-week meditation workshop. I tried meditation for the first time last year, and for a while I was going to private sessions with a wonderful instructor at LA Dharma in Westwood. The experience I had in the couple of months that I was practicing was Read more…
Apr
21
2008
A New Season
This morning I got up before 6AM. This is the first day of me beginning a new regime. Last Friday, as evidenced by my last post, after I’d finished setting up my new computer and downloading all my old files and photos, I suddenly saw my life here in Chicago with fresh eyes. I was Read more…
Jan
23
2008
Depleted
I’m sitting here at my desk at 6:30 on a Wednesday evening feeling depleted. I’m listening to Beethoven softly on the speakers and from the apartment above me I can hear the strum of my neighbor’s guitar. It’s snowing softly outside and all I want to do is crawl into bed. I’ve been crying a Read more…
Dec
07
2007
Last Week of Nothingness
Did you know that Oprah comes on at 9AM here in Chicago? I wish I didn’t know this. I wish I could say that I didn’t sleep until almost 9 this morning and then get up and put on Oprah on low volume while I drank coffee and read emails. It’s Friday. And it’s my Read more…
Nov
26
2007
Coming Home
I was crying before I even walked in the door yesterday. Thanksgiving was absolutely wonderful. Could I write two more contradictory sentences? I had the loveliest time in Ohio with Greg and his family. It was the most relaxing four days I’ve had in a while (yes, even more relaxing than the Caribbean somehow). We Read more…
