Hi! I’m alive! …but exhausted. I want to write all about the birth and the billion things that have gone on in my head since becoming the mother of two girls, but I just don’t have it in me right now. I think I’ve slept a total of 7 hours since Juliette was born. The kid is great at sleeping during the day but has been up ALL night the last two nights.
Aside from the sleep deprivation, things couldn’t be better. She is such a sweet baby and we are all incredibly healthy and happy to be at home. I feel so grateful to have had such an easy birth experience again and am really thankful that our sweet girl is so strong and lively. It’s also wonderously relaxing to do this baby thing for the second time. Seriously — it’s so much easier to bring a new baby home when you’ve already done it before. It’s already so funny to think back on the first few months of hovering obsessively over Vera’s every movement and murmur, wondering if everything was as it should be, and then to not feel the need to do that this time.
The biggest thing so far is just transitioning into being a family of four. It’s not really any harder than I imagined, or even particularly that hard yet at all. It’s more that it’s so sweet and strange to go through this shift in dynamics. Watching Vera become a sister is probably the most incredible thing I’ve ever experienced in my whole life. When I think back on moments of doubt and resentment about this pregnancy, a huge lump forms in my throat imagining having not done this. It’s just amazing to see them together. Veronica couldn’t be more enchanted/enthralled/obsessed/loving/concerned/wondrous when it comes to her sister. V wants to participate in everything that involves J and is more than happy to sit quietly and hold her for up to twenty minutes.
Another remarkable thing is that Juliette looks identical to Veronica as an infant and it’s tripping all of us out. I mean really, they look exactly alike. This photo doesn’t even do it justice. (Vera on top, Jules on bottom.)
They have the same face, make the same expressions, have the same long fingers. Who knows how they’ll turn out down the road, but all I know is that it’s the most surreal thing to be sitting up in the night with this little creature because it just flashes me back to three years ago when I became a mom altogether and it’s all so just kind of strange and wonderful.
More soon, I promise. I’ll leave you with this video of all of our first five minutes together as a foursome, and this link to a million photos from the last three days.
Again, thank you all for the sweet messages and comments. I usually try to respond to everything that comes my way, but I just can’t right now. I’m reading and appreciating everything so much though!
p.s. I’m too tired to proof this. Excuse any errors.