Okay, so I'm serious about this project. Ever since I wrote that first post I've been giving this a lot of thought. The thing is that I'm just not satisfied with the way my life has been unfolding. And I'm determined to do something about it.
Like I said, I feel like I've been on the defense, just barely managing to stay on top of the rolling bolder that is my life. But I want to change that, and I think I can.
For starters, I began writing in my journal again this weekend. No real entries of length, but rather thoughts and ideas for how to go about this. Basically a lot of lists.
Lists of things I want to change.
Lists of ways to change those, which often involve making more lists.
Lists for those things.
Um, so far lists seem kind of key.
One of the main things I've decided to do is make Sundays into a sacrosanct, kind of planning day. And as such, I am going to make a list every Sunday of the things I want to accomplish in the week ahead. So far my list for this week involves everything from finding my cat Reynold's missing collar to being more present to my interactions with friends. It also contains items like "go to one yoga class," and "take one bath."
This tactic actually seems really helpful already. First off, things like finding my cat's collar are one of those items that I forget about every day until I'm lying in bed at night, trying to fall asleep and suddenly remembering, "Arrgh, I forgot to look for Reynold's collar AGAIN today." But if it's on a list that I look at every day, I'm much more apt to actually take 5 minutes and complete the task.
And then items like "go to one yoga class," and "take one bath" are also really helpful because instead of me having this looming I need to start going to yoga again regularly guilt trip hanging over my head, I'm breaking it down into one easy task that doesn't seem so daunting.
I also started on a 100 things list. Kind of inspired by this one. I'm only up to 17 so far, and surprised that I don't have more, which makes me realize how important this list is. Do you have a list like this??
There are lots more ideas swimming around in my head, and I'll continue to scribble them out, and try to make sense of this plan. I'm feeling excited though, and already a little bit rejuvenated.